Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Making life worthwhile….

Last week’s Sunday Times has given a wonderful article on Kaka Joglekar… who fought with no. of radiations n chemotherapy n survived of Cancer, now leading a life by giving a musical touch to healing…by visiting various hospitals n singing marathi bhajans n hindi songs for the patients.

Here’s a link to the article… worth reading… how gracefully he faces all the pain n sufferings of the disease…. Hats off to Kaka Joglekar :)

Whn I read ths article.... i remebered those days..... tht even my Grandmother was once a cancer patient…. It was God’s grace tht… she survived…. But…even 2day…. v can see the side effects of all those treatment… I still remember the day when doctor uncle said tht she has a clot in her arm which has to be removed. V all were so scared coz…. Going thru such a operation at ths age was very difficult… I remember… for all 5 days I was with her…. For d first time I stayed overnight in the hospital…. they were all sleepless nights….

She got operated n v brought her back to home.. but thn… after few checkups…. V all were again shocked to hear tht… tht clot had left some cells n now r multiplying n r spreading out in the other parts of the body…. So doct uncle asked us to consult to some specialist as it was showing symptoms of cancer…. So….. v showed all the reports at Nanavati Hosp… after making so many further tests …. they confirmed tht… it’s a Cancer…. 2nd stage …. Its not possible to cure it completely… but… they can prevent those cells from spreading by Radiation n Chemotherapy… which has horrible side effects…like.. the patient goes bald, the heat of 
radiation causes pain in the stomach, etc ... v all were so tensed tht… is it fair to giv so much pain to her at ths age…. I remember… my Granmaa saying… plz don’t go 4 all ths… I m ok… don’t spend so much money behind me… plz don’t take so much trouble…. But… its like… even v dont knw… how n from where v got so much courage tht… no matter… v’ll try our best to make her alright… but…. now came the main part… coz… it was a two n half months long treatment… where she has to go for radiation every alternate day…. So.. v decided to rent a room at one of the sanitarium of our community at vile parle …. Which was nearby the hosp… now came the question … who will stay with her…. Coz… it was not possible 4 daddy n uncle 2 get such a long leave… n mom n aunty has to look after the home… finally it was decided tht I will stay with her… I had jst completed my graduation at tht time…. n had taken a regular post gradustion prog. which i then shifted to correspondence … n all was set.

V bought all 2 month’s grocery n started staying ther…. It was altogether a different experience… coz…. It was somthng diff. frm my everyday’s routine….. right from getting up early morning… filingl water, washing clothes, helping granmaa in bathing ….. thn performing our seva n puja…. After tht… making breakfast, preparing lunch n so on. After finishing lunch taking her to the hospital by rick, bring a wheelchair 4 her and taking her by lift to the radiation dept... .. I remember… how all the patients used to wait for their turn to come… patients’ tht part of body is marked where they r to be radiated…. everyone with diff. types of Cancer... it used to take one or two hours for all tht …. After radiation.. the patient has to take some cold drink or some juice…. Coz… those rays r so strong tht it produces a lot of heat n its v.painful for sometime… so preparing fresh juice for her after reaching home… nd thn v used to take a small nap for sometime…. n thn… tea n breakfast session… thn… going market to buy some stuff for dinner n for next day… nd after coming back…. V used to sing aarti, some kirtan n reading one bhagvadvaarta everyday in the evening …. Thn again preparing khaanaa… having dinner..... n all tht procedure of cleaning the kitchen, etc..... i remember tht d kitchen was also like old ones.... wher u hav to sit down n prepare food.... but v all managed.... so the day used to end like tht.... as ther was no TV… no radio allowed ther… so was somewht boring… but v managed everything.

Days passed… n she completed her radiation treatment… n v brought her back to home happily… I remember she never used to complain tht its paining or troubling her…. It was her strong will power which helped her struggle n come out of it ….. but… as days passed.. v cld see the side effects… she started loosing her knee length long hairs … they kept on falling n falling n after some months not a single hair was left on her head… now hav managed to grow till her shoulders… [whnever I oil her hairs… I say…oh… now its looking like Urmila cut… :))]….. her skin which was so fair n soft… got tanned n rough… pickles which she loved to eat started causing pain in her stomach...

But.. inspite of all thses she still has managed to keep tht sweet smile always on her face…. n thtz how she manage to keep courage….

I knw… she has lot of affection for me.. whnever I go to meet her… she feels like she is the happiest person on the earth… she always say… “aaje thakorjii nii krupaa thaii.. ke taaraa darshan thayaa” (Oh… 2day God mst b v.haapy on me.. tht u hav come) … she stays with my uncle… coz he has lot of affection for her… so v cant bring her to our place… but.. I visit there every weekend… oil her hairs… cut her nails…. massage her legs… thn she starts her Q & A session…. Wht al u did ths week… which latest movie did u saw…how r ur frnds…. which new kirtan u learnt in Mandir… wht r 2dayz shringar of thakorjii.... wht r d festivals n utsav coming next week… n all tht….  sometimes she secretly complains abt my mom n aunty :))) (like typical saas) .... but.... she has lot of care n affection for all of us....

I can recognise from her face the strength, the will power, the courage she has… which always keeps her happy n smiling....... which inturn makes me feel happy n blessed…. :)

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Gulzar Sir... The Best!!!



Is modd se jaate hai.....
kuchh sust qadam rastein..... kuchh tez qadam raahein......
patthar kii havelii ko...... shiishe ke gharaundon mein.....
tinakon ke nasheman tak..... is modd se jaate hain.


Passing through this path (turn).....
some slow pace roads.... some fast pace paths...
some going towards palace made of rocks,
some to houses made of glasses....
while some to small places made of dry grasses.....
Passing through ths.....


Aandhii kii tarah uddkar...... ik raah guzaratii hai....
sharamaatii huii koii...... qadamon se utartii hai.


Flying like a storm.... one road is passing thru...
some smilingly.... are stepping downwards....


Inn reshamii raahon mein........ ik raah to vo hogii....
tum tak jo pahunchtii haii...... is modd se jaatii hai.


From all these roads... one such road might b ther....
which might b reaching u.... which is passing thru ths path...


Iss modd se jaate hain...
Going through ths path....

Ikk duur se aatii hai....... paas aake palat tii hai....
ik raah akelii sii...... rukatii hai na chaltii hai.....


One coming from a long distance....
And after coming close.... again turns back to other side...


ye sochake baithii huun...... ik raah to vo hogii......
tum tak jo pahunchtii hai....... is modd se jaate hain


I m jst sitting with a thought tht.... from all these roads...
one such road might b ther.. which must b reaching u....


iss modd se jaate hain......
which is going through this road....

kuchh sust qadam rastein...... kuchh tez qadam raahein
patthar kii havelii ko...... shiishe ke gharondon mein.....
tinakon ke nasheman tak..... is modd se jaate hain.


some slow pace roads.... some fast pace paths...
some going towards palace made of rocks,
some to houses made of glasses....
while some to small places made of dry grasses.....
Passing through ths.....

iss mod se jaate hain.....

I hav jst tried to translate the song.... as per PV's request... :)
But... truly it has a v.beautiful meaning.....
but cldnt express it tht beautifully... :((

It was jst yesterday.... was having audit after lunch.....
so jst took all the documents... heading towards the co. ..... got into a rick.

some 35-40 mins journey .... so thought of listening some music....
was abt to put my earplugs....
n the rickshawalla said.... madam... ek minute.... hamaaraaFM suniye ....
first came....
Kaanchii re.... Kaanchii re.... ...... preet merii saachii... .....
rukk jaa naa jaa dil todd ke... v.nice song....
and thn came... ths beautiful song of Gulzar saab.....
beautiful lyrics...... in all.... a beautiful song...
so thought of putting it into my post.... Njoi... :)

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Footprints



When v r young.... v have an ideal to follow,
v always follow the paths laid by great souls,
and inspired by their achievements.... v start moving with our dreams.... and our goals.... to reach the skies.... with a focus on our destination....

But... as time passes... and as v move towards the heights... surprisingly... v realise tht... the path.... which we are following.... r becoming our limitations..... so.... v ourself start moving ahead with a faith and a confidence..... and make a new path.... leaving behind our footprints .....

Today... when v turn back to see them.... they r unseen...
They r washed away by the waves of time....
But.. still v keep on moving and moving to leave our foot prints... with a feeling tht.. someday someone wld follow them.... to discover..... newer skies.... and newer destinations.... And Still.... newer Foot Prints... :)

Have a nice Weekend... :)

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Chacha Nehru's Gift To The Children Of India

Today is 14th November... and v all celebrate it as Children's Day and Chacha Nehru's B'day....

Was jst remembring those innocent and sweet days .... right from the day.. whn v stepped into ths beautiful world... till the date... where v r 2day....

Lets thank our parents who made our childhood so beautiful... lets thank them who made every possible things to giv us the happiness v asked for...

lets thank our teachers... who were always ther with us to guide us and to correct us at each and every step.....

Lets recollect some memories of Jawaharlal Nehru....

On 14th November, 1889, a son was born to an eminent lawyer, Motilal Nehru n his wife Swaroop Rani. They named him Jawaharlal. He was brilliant and compassionate and was grtly loved by al..... And when India gained its independence.... ths outstanding statesman was named.... the first Prime Minister of the country.

He was a perfect blend of eastern values and western thinking..... and encouraged technological progress. But he was also a man of letters.... and a great poet and wrote some famous works like..... 'Glimpses of World History' and 'Discovery of India'. His letters to his daughter, Indira, was also compiled into a book and reflects his philosophical outlook..... his compassion and above all, his tender heart.

His gr8 luv for roses as well as children is a well-known fact..... In fact he often compared the two.... saying tht children were like the buds in a garden...... They should be carefully and lovingly nurtured..... as they were the future of the nation and the citizens of tomorrow..... He felt tht childrn r the real strength of a country and the vry foundation of society..... Mst importantly he believed in giving equal opportunities to girls and boys..... In fact his own little grl grew up to be the third Prime Minister of India.....

Quite naturally, he was the 'beloved' of all the children who gave him the endearing name of 'Chacha Nehru'..... As a tribute to ths grt man and his genuine love for children..... his b'day is celebrated all over India as 'UNIVERSAL CHILDREN'S DAY'...... A day of fun and fanfare..... celebrated with singing, dancing and storytelling in schools and colleges as well as on radio and TV..... Special functions r held to honour children all over the country.....oh..i miss those school days.... :(

The significance of Children's Day......

Chacha Nehru's real msg was..... to provide our children with a safe and loving environment in which to grow..... as well as..... giving them ample and equal opportunities.... thru which they can take grt strides and contribute 2 d progress of d nation..... Ths day serves as a reminder to each and every one of us, to renew our commitment..... to the welfare of children... and teach them to live by true standards of life so tht they can leave their footprints.... (oh... i feel like wrting somthng abt it...) nd to set a good example of themselves.... :)

Hey....Next time shall write somethng abt footprints....
Till then... bye n take care :)

Thursday, November 09, 2006

My Dear Friend....


I Can See The Pain

I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall

I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new

Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever

Two years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my like ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see

We decided to go out and make it all all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't

I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall

Is it that easy to FORGET !!!

I don't understand what happened to us
Or why you have turned away.
Of course you are free to do as you like,
But first I have something to say.

To me it had seemed we could go on forever,
So close were our hearts, and at ease,
So much did we share, yet the words never faltered,
So I thought as time did as it pleased.

Whatever I did that has made you unhappy,
Or am that is not to your taste,
Or would be were I to return to your graces,
Or won't be if I am replaced:

I want you to know that your friendship is something
I treasure, and would not now end.
If you would be willing to turn to embrace me,
You'd find in me still a good friend.

Ok.....I jst want to dedicate this post to one of my dear frnd.....
Its two months since v ended our frndship.....the first person to end a relation with...
How easy it is to say tht....Just Forget Everything......
But....i want to say...
Is it tht easy to forget everythng.....
Is it tht easy to forget tht u were so happy.....whn u met 4 the first time.... n u prayed to God tht.. ths shld b the one... God..ths shld b the one.... :)
Is it tht easy to forget the care and affection u had for each other....
Is it tht easy to forget those moments u shared..u talked with each other......
Is it tht easy to forget those small n sweet fights u had with each other.....
Is is tht easy to forget tht....how easily u said....jst forget evrythng...jst forget tht v ever met....
i want to say.....Is it tht esay to forget everythng......tell me....is it tht easy....???


Hmmm.....i m getting too emotional...... :)
Anyways...its not tht easy to forget those ppl...those frnds who made a difference to ur life.....
It is really very hurting......
I wish.....v cld be frnds as before.....i knw.....now nothng is left....n now its not possible....
But...i dont knw y...still....will always feel ths..... n...... those feeling will stay forever in some corner of my heart.... :)

Ok thn....will come back next time.....and i promise with some fun....not ths emotions n all :))
Till thn...take care...n hav a nice time..... :) 

Monday, November 06, 2006

How to begin with....



Hi Everyone....
I m totally new to this blog world.....
I dont knw how to begin with....
But....it was some months back....i came across some blogs......and found them interesting. It was good to see tht u all share ur thoughts so well.... 
Many times me too felt like expressing my thoughts also.....but was lil hesitated....
But...thn....one day..... i made up my mind to step into this huge blog world....
So...here i m....with some memories.....some thoughts...some dreams....n with some kind of excitement which i cant express.....to share them with u al.....

Sometimes i do feel tht......v r so busy with our work.....our social responsiblities.....n all....v always feel tht time is too short for us.....v have so many thngs pending.....so many commitments.....so many stuffs to do....etc...

But still.......whtz ther.....which is forcing me to take out sum time n write sumthing which is going around in my life.....and......they r.....my thoughts....my feelings......which i want to express n share with my close ones.....my frnds......
I knw.....i hav some close frnds who r very dear to me.....n v.close to my heart....with whom i share my all thoughts...all dreams...al memories....some moments of laughter....some moments of tears......

But.....still many times....i feel like giving words to my thoughts......
So.....here i m....to give words to few of my many thoughts..... :)
I hope u all r there with me.....

Ok then.....shall see u all soon.....
Till then.....Have a nice time.....and....take care :)